Every December, I review how I did with my goals for the previous year. While I’m still going to do that this December, I wanted to take a look at how my goals for this year have gone so far since we’re about halfway through 2025. There’s been a lot of changes and differences already from how I thought things would go. Without further ado, here’s how things look at this point.
- Have more important conversations. Of the three goals in this list, this one has seen the least progress thus far. If anything, my conversational skills have regressed. I have far less patience than I did even at the start of this year, I’m still inclined to push away and ignore people who’ve unintentionally hurt me in small ways rather than talk with them, and I tend to say more of what’s on my mind with less regard for how it comes across. It only seems to get harder to have important, healing conversations over time, and I don’t know if I’ll ever get back to it at this point. As such, I worry about the fate of my current and future relationships.
- Thrive financially. Without a doubt, this is my most successful goal at this point. My financial situation is much better than it’s been in a long time thanks to the job I started back in April. It’s still steadily improving even after getting some car work done and going to Disney World to say goodbye to the Muppets last month. This has been a huge relief. While there’s still quite a way to go before my financial situation is where it was at its peak, every month it gets a little closer to that point. I’m so thankful for that.
- Heal other pain. This one is a mixed bag. Most of the pain from my dog Sawyer’s death is gone, thank goodness. Unfortunately, I still have pain from my grandmother’s death, losing access to my grandparents’ house, many negative experiences with a coworker, and plenty of wounds from early in life that often seem as if they’ll never heal. Being so busy at work means that I have far less time for lying down and letting go. I do take advantage of opportunities as they arise during the work week, such as in my car before work starts and on my lunch break. I also tend to do more letting go sessions on the weekends. All of those help tremendously, though it still seems as slow as trying to dig myself out from underneath a giant pile of dirt with a spoon. Even if the process seems endless, I hope that I’ll make more progress each year until I’m finally free.