I’ve made letting go much more of a priority as of late than I did earlier this year. My focus the past few weeks has been letting go of guilt and shame. Here’s what I’ve noticed about that.
I did a decent amount of letting go on Friday and Saturday. Despite doing no letting go sessions on Sunday, the previous days’ work still had me feeling good, even when having some negative human interactions on Sunday at the zoo. All that work appears to have made me feel much more at ease around other humans. I noticed that on Monday at work when I felt pretty comfortable all day whether I was by myself, around my usual coworkers, or other folks I hadn’t seen in a long time.
After having an unexpected day off work yesterday, I decided I’d keep this up. I got three hours of letting go in throughout the day while still doing fun and productive tasks. As expected, I gradually felt better as the day progressed. I even managed to go into some deeper moments of guilt and shame from earlier in my life and released at least some of them. That had me feeling so good that the next day at work went swimmingly, even though I did hardly any letting go sessions. I felt hardly any fear, anxiety, frustration, or any other negativity all day, which was such a welcome surprise.
I always love finding areas like this to work on. It’s like finding the missing piece of the puzzle or toppling a particular domino that knocks over many others. This has brought a huge amount of relief and peace. I believe it will be another huge milestone in my healing journey, similarly to when I let go of lots of fear in late 2021 or released a huge amount of grief over my dog Sawyer’s death the last four years. It’s freed up so much space and effort that no longer has to be spent suppressing negativity. I doubt I’ve released it all, so I can only imagine what even more releases will do. I’d like to soon revisit releasing embarrassment and awkwardness as I did earlier this year. I’ve a feeling it’ll pair well with the focus on releasing guilt and shame. I look forward to finding out.